tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17172859348962659472024-02-20T08:32:51.251-08:00Rik Wallin aka Rikard Wallin or Rick Wagner: Diary of Filthy Thoughts and Bogus DesiresThis is a place that I use like and old fashioned diary posting stuff I run into, ideas, gripes, concerned, and exciting adventures.. Nobody reads or ever comments on it so I don't much care who finds it.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18231901908939179829noreply@blogger.comBlogger27125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-64268169083343592412016-12-26T13:04:00.000-08:002016-12-26T13:04:06.578-08:00My resolutions for 2017.<div style="color: #1d2129; font-family: 'San Francisco', -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, '.SFNSText-Regular', sans-serif; font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: -0.23999999463558197px; margin-bottom: 6px;">
<i><b>My resolutions for 2017.<br />=============</b></i><br />I’ve learned a lot about personal loss this year. I’m now beyond the causes or the reasons and I have decided to move on without looking back. This year I want to finish what I started trying to liquidate the remains of our $100,000 MysticWays inventory business of Essential / Fragrance Oils and Pagan themed items. Lots more work on the new system but having the extra pocket change later will help our small family consisting of Me, my wonderful husband Sven, and our three critters. </div>
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I also want to get the Harley motorcycle up for sale on Craig’s List but need to research reasonable pricing etc. The place where the tree fell on the roof peak back in August needs minor roof attention that I’ll need to turn over to a contractor this spring. Meanwhile, there’s plenty of de-cluttering chores to do turning this shell of a house back into a home again. Maybe a Garage Sale is in order but here in Dallas you need to buy a permit or get arrested for not having one. Sweet huh? Also, have Sven’s baby grand piano to get rid of by either selling it for a song or donating to someone willing to remove and pickup themselves. I suggested a sledge hammer and the fireplace but that didn’t go over well. (smirk)</div>
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I also need to set up a fund for our annual city property tax of about $4,000 per year. Yes, it sucks but rules are rules and I guess it beats foreclosure or bankruptcy. Didn’t realize that it cost $333 bucks a month to retrieve weekly trash and recycling. Not much else they do for it. Something to remember even though the house is paid off in full. What was it they said about always depending on death and taxes?? Hummm, Yup…</div>
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Right now I’m in the mindset of “<i>FUCK YESTERDAY</i>” and focusing more on tomorrow. Stop using the words like “CAN’T” or “Maybe Later” and especially “I remember when” like so many other geezers do. Nope, today is today and it is what it is. Sweet huh? Solutions are mine and mine alone without permission or acceptance from anyone else. </div>
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Instead of going out to a bar alone and looking like a stooge maybe I’ll take a deck of Tarot cards and entertain myself with my own incredible talent to ‘see the unseen’ but no readings for others. Those days are massively over. I need to get back to messing with my arts and craft projects even if I finish and throw them out later. It’s my way of proving accomplishment to myself. Spending less time on social media can also be a plus. Nothing really good has come from it all except countless hours of typing. Shit, for that I could be writing a book or organizing my collection of over 1,000 CD’s and another 800 DVD movies. </div>
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Nope, I can’t change the world and there comes a point when fighting for change should be left for others. If they want D. Chump for president, then good for them. I’ve learned how to change my name twice manipulating the “marriage” system to my benefit. I will continue to do so legally. Today, if one of us croaks we can still get social security bennies from the other. I hope that doesn’t change but still. To all the peeps who want to take those equal rights away from me as they bastardize their religion as an excuse, I hope they have their own moment of time to suffer from their own actions. I say this without regret or compassion. If this makes me out to be a worse person to readers then I’m sorry for your disappointment but I have my own standards also.</div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18231901908939179829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-71724884468735912932016-03-26T06:28:00.002-07:002016-03-26T06:28:40.741-07:00Not so good so far... It's only MarchWell let's see... money is horribly tight, my back injury from 2001 decided to act up, doctors are slower than shit, There's so much 'wait and see' going on that it's enough to drive ya crazy. Maybe things will finally get better and quickly take a turn.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18231901908939179829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-16421091418959466572015-06-28T06:32:00.000-07:002015-06-28T06:32:11.328-07:00Dear God, Thanks for NOTHING!After all the horrible things that have happened to me throughout my life, I'm not really sure that there is a God anymore.<br />
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<li>Burnt over 45% of my body at 6yrs old from a fireworkx accident. </li>
<li>Bullied and harrased for 17 years for being scarred and different. </li>
<li>Apartment burnt down 2 weeks before christmas leaving nothing but the clothes on my back at 21. </li>
<li>Hit by a drunk when riding my motorcycle after taking a friend to avoid spending his grocery money at 42. </li>
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Nope, let the bible thunpers rock on praying to their invisible energies filled with hate all they want. I'm proud to be me and I love the broken man in the mirror and I don't give a flying fuck what others think or care cuz this is<strong> MY LIFE </strong>not theirs.<br />
It's not the life I expected, but at least I'm still willing to adapt to all the cruelty, hate, and ignorance reminding myself that in the end they can deal with their own hate when it reflects right back on them latter on. Hateful and Ignorant people die alone and lonely and as much of a people person as I've been throughout my life, the horse is dead and there's no point in kicking it. Bless their pathetic heart and walk on.<br />
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Remember, these folk got ttheir hate going to their TAX FREE CHURCH filled with "fake love" and all you have to do is drive to Dallas to see these churches that consume property the size larger than Wallmart while school districts cry they are too poor to fix the crumbling schools that educate heir ignored and overlooked offspring. <strong><em>Yup, praise the lord and screw the kids</em></strong>. The dumber they are, the more we can get away with later and do it all TAX FREE.. <em>What a concept huh?</em> <span class="fbUnderline">Sure, kill all the fags and lezbos cuz they're less than human and they don't love like we do right?</span> Don't worry, we'll make more when these kids squirt out more illegitamate offspring later looking for love with 14 year old raging hormones. Can't get it at home, might as well get it somewhere else right?<br />
<strong>DEAR GOD, FUCK YOU!!!</strong><br />
--Rik WallinAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18231901908939179829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-41438112084873546742014-10-10T06:36:00.002-07:002014-10-10T06:38:20.464-07:00Well, for the past couple days.. i've been really geeking out using Apple iPhoto and YouTube to make video slideshows of many of my interesting memories. Why? Well, I used to have a photo area with 45,000 photos taken for many years and I also had a Video area with various movies that I'd produce and send back to family members in New England and do my best to share online. <br />
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Sadly though the upload process to my webserver was brutal and the download to watch them required lots of time and hard drive space to say the least.. Well now I decided to put as much as I can on my very own YouTube channel which is located <b>right here at this address: <a href="http://tinyurl.com/q6tqoml">http://tinyurl.com/q6tqoml</a></b> (yes, it's made with TinyUrl so you don't have to be stuck with an address that goes around your house about three times)<br />
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The idea is to create a video legacy of the moments in my life.. be they good or bad or otherwise. Some of the people shown in them aren't even alive today as of this writing Friday, October 10, 2014 and it's a cool legacy for them also. In the old days I used to title each photo of what was going on and who was in it... <very time consuming> These days I've decided not to waste so much time on it instead focusing on getting the large mass online quickly and easily and fiddle with it later. Because face it, putting captions on a boatload of pictures is no fun when you're old and have a forgetful brain.<br />
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Anyhow.. there's something here for everyone.. Even the peeps who have abandoned me or done me wrong in the past (you know who you are) and I have no malice to share "Bless Your Hearts." Life is too damn short to live in the past when you have new things to focus on. I always considered myself just like everyone else but now, I'm not so sure anymore when I see others so amazed at what they see and hear through all this. Still, I like sharing and will continue to do so even though I might not ever get to meet those of you watching this stuff. Ta Ta for now... Bye... Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18231901908939179829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-7784641544664122242014-09-05T08:50:00.002-07:002014-09-05T09:02:15.368-07:00If you're reading this, YOU'RE AN IDIOT !!Yup, you read that title right.. You're an idiot.. We're all idiots and it's about time that you all faced the fact.. We're all stupid too. Stupid when it comes to quantum physics, stupid when it comes to brain surgery, and also in many other ways. <br />
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Big deal so what! You're always going to be an idiot and you're always going to be stupid on some things but the real question here is ARE YOU IGNORANT? Do you IGNORE the chance to learn something new? Do you IGNORE that there's more to your simple and sometimes pathetic existence than what you know already? Yeah dude, that's the real question.<br />
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Some say that "ignorance is bliss" but in reality this ignorant person "chose" not to learn what was presented to him and now chooses to be stupid. He IGNORES the facts even though they're plain as day sitting right there in front of him. This fucking sux and so does this piece of shit who calls himself a human being. <br />
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Let's take this ignorance up a level to all the fighting going on in the world. Everyone seems to be on some kind of power struggle to be the best, or have the most, or reach the top. Once they get there, the ignorant detach themselves from those less fortunate and lack the love to share wisdom with others. <br />
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Kinda like all these fucked up religious wars going on in the world now.. The ignorant teach others to hate anyone and anything that's different than their own beliefs and way of living. Yup, this is fact. These idiots who are stupid and lack knowledge become ignorant and choose not to enlighten themselves with the things they don't understand or relate to. Too afraid to ask for help or direction (like most male humans in the world) the begin a new life filled with hate. The hate grows until they maim, disfigure, and harm others around them and they do it without a single bit of remorse.<br />
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Yah, I'm an idiot for writing this and you're an idiot for reading it. I wonder just how fucked up your little world is but instead of being filled with dislike or distrust, I know that it's your life not mine and I know that I have to pay more attention to keeping my own shit in order and on the up and up instead of worrying about the shit you do. <br />
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However, I have one single poignant rule for my own humanity and that is to destroy anyone who goes out of their way to harm me. Not the guy next to him, but the one who actually commits an act of harm against me. I will fight to the death with absolutely zero respect or remorse because they chose to invade my peaceful life and do harm. I will use every piece of wisdom I own to crush, conquer, destroy, humiliate, and set an example to others who might wish to do the same. Best of all I do it all without being paranoid or worry about any repercussion from my actions because it involves ME and THEM. Should someone else "choose" to engage on their behalf the cycle begins all over again with the new player.<br />
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Why are so many people so stupid in this respect.. We were all put on this earth to live our lives, to love our neighbors and to love our creator as well but it seems that there are so many pre-occupied with HATE that they have totally forgotten to love. They don't even love themselves anymore and I find this really sad.<br />
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Ya know, I respect everyone I meet.. I don't have to like them all but I at least know what the world compassion and sharing means. So how many of you Idiots reading this do the same? No, don't pull you "go to church every Sunday" bullshit cuz you were probably the same asshole who slammed on his brakes and waved his fist at the old lady who almost hit him in the parking lot. You don't respect others when it's "Convenient" for you. YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO DO IT ALL THE FUCKING TIME ASSHOLE!!!<br />
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Here in 2014 we have half the middle east fighting and killing each other because of what church they belong to. How fucking funny is that? Ohhh and we have black peeps in Africa who will die from Ebola, a deadly virus with no "cure" as of yet. Maybe we should pick them up by the plane load and drop them off in Syria, Iraq, and the other nations consumed with hate and fighting.. Yeah, even Israel the home of Christ the savior. It would make things real simple.. The people would either drop their guns and put their heads and bank accounts together for solutions or they will die from their own infected ignorance. Wow, what a concept huh?? Wouldn't that be a true testament of humanitarianism! I wonder if I'm the only one on the planet who thought of this?<br />
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Now read this right, I'm not saying we should extract the virus and use it to infect others... Nope, I'm saying just fill a few planes with infected peeps and just re-populate them in these fighting areas. Nature will do the rest all on it's own. Nature is a funny thing like that ya know.. It doesn't know anything about love and hate or life and death. It just doesn't care, kinda like some of the rich folk these days who also don't care. <br />
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Yup, you're an idiot and I'm an idiot.. I just think with a wider outlook than others but that still doesn't make me any better of an idiot than you. Just different, and different is good. Imagine what our lives would be like if we didn't have DIFFERENT stuff. Imagine if we only had ONE COLOR! First, the very concept of a color or a word to describe it would no longer exist because there would be nothing to compare it to. Nothing at all. Think about it. What's the color of nothing?<br />
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With difference comes contrast. Love and Hate contrast each other. They're absolutes. There's nothing hate'yer than hate or love'yer than love. In the case of absolutes, if you eliminate one than it immediately eliminates the other because there is no longer a contrast to compare it to. Pretty fucking deep huh? <br />
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Some days I wish I had a huge magick wand that I could wave and put the entire world into one big "Do-Over" mode. Kind of like, a retro time-warp that we go back in time and start over but retain all of the historical knowledge we have today. I wonder how ignorant people would "choose" to be or how much more we would grow. Would we become more paranoid saying shit like "Don't do that..you remember what happened the last time" to others around us? Or would we just live a more loving and compassionate life sharing wisdom and experiences with others?<br />
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Ahh well, enough of this rambling and questionable thought. I have a fucked up life of my own dealing with health issues, friendship/loneliness issues, financial issues and so on. Still it's kind of refreshing being able to journal/vent things on this blog. Until the next time I guess... bye...Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18231901908939179829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-8919027999759885702014-08-22T16:09:00.001-07:002014-08-22T16:09:06.202-07:00Busy Day Organizing and Collecting<p>Busy day today doing lots of organizing and collecting of my pagan book of shadows stuff..</p> <p>The big focus was putting together a bunch of Kabbala stuff for my teacher to share with the other students in my group. I had gotten it about 10 years ago and apparently she can no longer find her pile in her office so I said I would hunt my stuff down, scan it, and pass it on for her to add back to the library. </p> <p>Me and my big mouth, what an EFFING job fighting the POS Neat Scanner and associated software. First I had to dig the thing outta the garage, then clean it all off.. Then re-install the software only to find that the crap won’t work with Apple OS X 10.10. Oiy, such fun.. So after about two days I ripped the thing apart and threw it in the trash.. then I deleted every remnant of the MAC and the Windows software promising that I will *NEVER* do business with the Neat company again. </p> <p>Then my wonderful huz (God I love him so!) went out to Amazon and got me a “Doxie Go” portable scanner that runs cordless and saves to an SD card.</p> <p> In the meantime, until it gets here, I can go through all of my stuff (a pile of binders about 2.5 feet high that I collected over 15 years) and put the handouts in order so they can be scanned and shared. </p> <p>Now, next time we have an elder’s MA’AT class we will all be in sync once again. </p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18231901908939179829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-61876736992789488182014-04-20T11:24:00.003-07:002014-07-31T07:35:36.265-07:00Goodbye To The Wagners!<span style="background-color: yellow;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Back in February me and my Huz posted messages about changing our names. Since that time, I have gotten lots of positive feedback but I've also gotten questions from others who never read the articles. Soooo I decided to post both of them right here for people to be able to scan. </span></span><br />
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Well, it's in motion... After a long discussion with my husband, he's decided to change his name and do away with any remaining connections to his adopted "Wagner" family and to also alter his first name from Winfield to his initial birth name of Sven. I think this is a wonderful idea for emotional closure since his parents are gone and those who remain are oblivious to the world LOVE or FAMILY.</div>
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Since we're legally married in Washington DC, he asked if I wanted to change my name also. I assumed Wagner about 20 years ago when my sexually abusive, drug addicted step father (Sande) croaked.</div>
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So I thought for awhile and since his name is going to be Sven Andréas Wallin, I decided to move mine to Rikard Michael Wallin.</div>
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Rikard, (isn't that so awesomely exotic and cool?) and I can still be Rik for short so people don't have to call me a new name...</div>
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So there you have it FB Peeps!! My new name will become Rik Wallin over the coming months.. (by the way, in Sweden the name Wallin sounds like Vall-een)</div>
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<span style="color: black;"><a href="http://mysticwaysbooks.com/" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><img alt="Sven Wallin" class="alignleft size-medium wp-image-17" src="http://www.svenandreaswallin.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/02/Wynn-hippie-etch-275x300.jpg" hspace="10" style="border: 1px solid rgb(163, 152, 86); display: inline; float: left; height: auto; margin: 0px 7px 2px 0px; max-width: 490px; padding: 2px;" vspace="10" width="100" /></a><span class="dquo" style="margin: 0px 0px 0px -0.4em; padding: 0px;">“</span>Wow, that was basically an autobiography,” my friend John said after he read my book, <a href="http://www.wynnwagnerbooks.us/16/brent-the-heart-reader/" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank"><span class="caps" style="font-size: 11px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">BRENT</span>: <span class="caps" style="font-size: 11px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">THE</span> <span class="caps" style="font-size: 11px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">HEART</span> <span class="caps" style="font-size: 11px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">READER</span></a>.</span></div>
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I lifted much of that from my experience with the relatives of the couple that adopted me. They rescued me from foster care, and I am as grateful for that as I know how to be. “The system” was awful. Thank goodness I only spent six years there. Almost immediately after I was adopted, I was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, and the couple that adopted me got me the best medical care that was available. I will be grateful to them for that (and all the other things they did) as long as I live.</div>
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They’ve been dead for 10 years (mom) and 12 years (dad). That left me with a bunch of cousins who were able to abuse me with impunity. Way back, mom kept her relatives in line.</div>
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Those people hate gays and liberals and people with scary health issues. I was always the Black Sheep in the family, according to them. Now without my adopted parental units, they got together and labeled me a diseased pariah. They came out of church and called my husband all kinds of deplorable things.</div>
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All that sounds like the relatives in <span class="caps" style="font-size: 11px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">BRENT</span>: <span class="caps" style="font-size: 11px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">THE</span> <span class="caps" style="font-size: 11px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">HEART</span><span class="caps" style="font-size: 11px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">READER</span>. I humiliated those <a class="tooltip_bd" href="http://www.beedictionary.com/definition/abusive" style="border-bottom-color: blue; border-bottom-style: dotted; border-bottom-width: 1px; margin: 0px; outline: none; padding: 0px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">abusive<span style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgb(153, 153, 153) 2px 2px 2px; -webkit-transition: opacity 0.4s ease-in-out, margin-top 0.3s ease-in-out, visibility 0.4s ease-in-out, margin-left 0.3s ease-in-out; background-image: -webkit-gradient(linear, 0% 0%, 0% 100%, from(rgb(251, 245, 230)), to(rgb(255, 255, 255))); border-bottom-left-radius: 3px; border-bottom-right-radius: 3px; border-top-left-radius: 3px; border-top-right-radius: 3px; border: 1px solid rgb(207, 181, 124); box-shadow: rgb(153, 153, 153) 2px 2px 2px; font-family: Arial; margin: 20px 0px 0px -85px; opacity: 0; padding: 10px 20px; position: absolute; transition: opacity 0.4s ease-in-out, margin-top 0.3s ease-in-out, visibility 0.4s ease-in-out, margin-left 0.3s ease-in-out; visibility: hidden; width: 200px; z-index: 10;"><b style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgb(255, 255, 255) -1px 1px 0px inset; -webkit-transform: rotate(-45deg); background-color: #fbf5e6; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-right-color: rgb(207, 181, 124); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 1px; border-top-color: rgb(207, 181, 124); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 1px; box-shadow: rgb(255, 255, 255) 0px 1px 0px inset; display: block; height: 15px; margin: -19px 0px 0px 20px; padding: 0px; position: absolute; width: 15px;"></b><strong style="font-size: 18px; line-height: 30px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"></strong><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><strong style="line-height: 30px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"></strong></span></a> characters in the book. I had some of them arrested and killed off one or two. It was great therapy.</div>
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Now that my adopted parents are gone for more than a decade, I have no connection with any of their relatives. In theory, I have a half-brother running around somewhere. He’d be a little older than me, but I’ve never heard any <a class="tooltip_bd" href="http://www.beedictionary.com/definition/inkling" style="border-bottom-color: blue; border-bottom-style: dotted; border-bottom-width: 1px; margin: 0px; outline: none; padding: 0px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">inkling<span style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgb(153, 153, 153) 2px 2px 2px; -webkit-transition: opacity 0.4s ease-in-out, margin-top 0.3s ease-in-out, visibility 0.4s ease-in-out, margin-left 0.3s ease-in-out; background-image: -webkit-gradient(linear, 0% 0%, 0% 100%, from(rgb(251, 245, 230)), to(rgb(255, 255, 255))); border-bottom-left-radius: 3px; border-bottom-right-radius: 3px; border-top-left-radius: 3px; border-top-right-radius: 3px; border: 1px solid rgb(207, 181, 124); box-shadow: rgb(153, 153, 153) 2px 2px 2px; font-family: Arial; margin: 20px 0px 0px -85px; opacity: 0; padding: 10px 20px; position: absolute; transition: opacity 0.4s ease-in-out, margin-top 0.3s ease-in-out, visibility 0.4s ease-in-out, margin-left 0.3s ease-in-out; visibility: hidden; width: 200px; z-index: 10;"><b style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgb(255, 255, 255) -1px 1px 0px inset; -webkit-transform: rotate(-45deg); background-color: #fbf5e6; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-right-color: rgb(207, 181, 124); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 1px; border-top-color: rgb(207, 181, 124); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 1px; box-shadow: rgb(255, 255, 255) 0px 1px 0px inset; display: block; height: 15px; margin: -19px 0px 0px 20px; padding: 0px; position: absolute; width: 15px;"></b><strong style="font-size: 18px; line-height: 30px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"></strong><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><strong style="line-height: 30px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"></strong></span></a> that he even knows about me. My birth mother is dead, and I know almost nothing about the sperm donor. It was probably a one night stand.</div>
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All I know about my personal history is that I am 100% Swedish. I remember that they called me Sven before I was adopted.</div>
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So now, I’ve decided to finish cutting the ties with all those people in my adopted family. They hate me, which is their loss. People who know about attitudes say cutting the remaining ties will be therapeutic.</div>
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In the coming weeks, I’m going through the court system to get my name changed.</div>
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There won’t be a Winfield Wagner any more. My nickname – Wynn Wagner – will become a nom de <a class="tooltip_bd" href="http://www.beedictionary.com/definition/plume" style="border-bottom-color: blue; border-bottom-style: dotted; border-bottom-width: 1px; margin: 0px; outline: none; padding: 0px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">plume<span style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgb(153, 153, 153) 2px 2px 2px; -webkit-transition: opacity 0.4s ease-in-out, margin-top 0.3s ease-in-out, visibility 0.4s ease-in-out, margin-left 0.3s ease-in-out; background-image: -webkit-gradient(linear, 0% 0%, 0% 100%, from(rgb(251, 245, 230)), to(rgb(255, 255, 255))); border-bottom-left-radius: 3px; border-bottom-right-radius: 3px; border-top-left-radius: 3px; border-top-right-radius: 3px; border: 1px solid rgb(207, 181, 124); box-shadow: rgb(153, 153, 153) 2px 2px 2px; font-family: Arial; margin: 20px 0px 0px -85px; opacity: 0; padding: 10px 20px; position: absolute; transition: opacity 0.4s ease-in-out, margin-top 0.3s ease-in-out, visibility 0.4s ease-in-out, margin-left 0.3s ease-in-out; visibility: hidden; width: 200px; z-index: 10;"><b style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgb(255, 255, 255) -1px 1px 0px inset; -webkit-transform: rotate(-45deg); background-color: #fbf5e6; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-right-color: rgb(207, 181, 124); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 1px; border-top-color: rgb(207, 181, 124); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 1px; box-shadow: rgb(255, 255, 255) 0px 1px 0px inset; display: block; height: 15px; margin: -19px 0px 0px 20px; padding: 0px; position: absolute; width: 15px;"></b><strong style="font-size: 18px; line-height: 30px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"></strong><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><strong style="line-height: 30px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"></strong></span></a> (or <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pseudonym" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">nom de guerre</a>).</div>
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New name: Sven Andréas Wallin.</div>
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First name is what my actual name was. Sven means kid or young one.</div>
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Middle name – Andréas – is a form of Andrew. I really like Andréas.</div>
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Last name will be Wallin because my husband likes it. The name means valley or pasture.</div>
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My initials will be <span class="caps" style="font-size: 11px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">SAW</span>, which is a little snarky (cutting device, not the ocular procedure). The e-acute in my middle name is on the edge of snooty, so that’ll be fun.</div>
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What I’m not used to is that the world is full of people named Sven Wallin. I am used to having free access for user names because nobody claims “wynnwagner” or “winfieldwagner”. Sadly “svenwallin” is already in use at all the major web services. The world is crawling with Sven Wallin peeps. On a recent check, I was literally tripping over “svenwallin” user names, so I will have to get used to being part of a crowd.</div>
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The name everybody knows – <a href="http://www.wynnwagnerbooks.com/" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">Wynn Wagner</a> – will be my pen name. Sven Andréas Wallin will be my legal name.</div>
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The coolest part is that my husband is changing his name too, so we will continue sharing our family name. This time, It is <span class="caps" style="font-size: 11px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">OUR</span> family name. Awwwww.….</div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18231901908939179829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-55208861627786252722013-08-31T06:45:00.001-07:002013-08-31T06:45:06.774-07:00Keyboard Fetish... Yeah so what??Ok, since I have been a computer junkie for the past 30+ years I've grown accustom to having a unique keyboard on all my home systems... Wynn says it's just a fetish but seriously.. I used to love the original IBM "clickety" styles for all my touch typing use... But of course they went the way of the dinosaur when all our compu-stuff was moved to China. Back in the day there was a competitor with IBM called Keytronics and they make some damn good clones of the chattering beast but they were still sold at a somewhat hefty price. <br />
Well low and behold, I found me two of them on ebay brand new in the box for a whopping $9 each... One for my Windows machine and one for my MAC and I also found some MAC keyboard stickers that I can use to put over the ALT and WIN keys respectfully for CMD and OPT.. Wooo hooooo...<br />
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The best part about these puppies is that you can zoom along typing and beat the shit out of the keys and never worry about them sticking or not registering correctly when you're in the middle of writing you great novel. And best of all you get true tactile feedback knowing that you really pressed the key instead of this mushy jelly thing. <br />
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Next, you take a glue gun and you make two dots on the F and the J keys to accentuate the home row keys so you can find them in a jiffy and not worry about damaging the keyboard for other future uses... ( Clever huh?) Ohh, and this little puppy has the large L shaped enter key so I don't have to go through the mindfuck of pressing the Shift instead of the Enter like so many others do. Gosh, I feel so giddy about this... So yeah, I guess I do have a fetish for the right touch when it comes to keyboards and that might explain why I had so many boxes of them up in the attic about 5 years ago when we had our last garage sale. <br />
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Even though Keytronics was a good clone, working in the mainframe world most of my life got me seriously used to the IBM version and the majority of the ones I found on eBay need all kinds of plug adapters to use on the machines of today... <sigh> ... so I'll just count my $9 blessings and continue my work in peace.. LOL<br />
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The weapons of mass destruction that never existed. The tyrant that was killed because he didn't agree with us or his own people? Religious wars? Huh? </div>
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Next these poor guys come home and they can't get jobs, they fee like they're rewarded with nothing but shit and then they kill themselves? This is memorial?</div>
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I'm a brain injury survivor and I know what it's like to "loose everything" in the blink of an eye. Career, Friends, Body Functions, and more... Yeah, this is now what I call "Rick 2.0" and he's more fucked up than "Rick 1.0" was a times but the 2.0 version had a tremendous amount of simpleton shit to learn that people of today simply take for granted. I had to adapt to all kinds of negative challenges so much that I almost wanted to take my own life too as I screamed in my sleep "Why, Why, Why? What the fuck did I ever do that was so horrible to be punished like this?" over and over again. </div>
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What's worse is that little 19 year old bastard that did this to me and almost took my life, never took responsibility for what he did with the two simple words of "I'm Sorry" and it took place on Memorial Day weekend. He negligence almost cost me my life as I saw all the ugliness of survival and psychologically accepted all the loss of who I used to be. The first 5 years were hell and those who knew me, would describe me as an "angry young man' who was dealt a loosing hand. </div>
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The phone stopped ringing, the friends stopped appearing and the social loss continued to grow and widen it's spectrum. The snappy compu-techie-nerd who formed his own ISP DIVANET business including nine hand-built computers that ran in his home was now a technical vegetable facing little to no future growth. </div>
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I remind myself how I had to re-learn and re-experience things all over again. Some of them I not at all fond of. I also had to learn how to fall in love with myself all over again too because the thing that looked back at me in the mirror was much different than the 1.0 version that I clearly remembered. </div>
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I had to be able to answer the question "Who is Rick Wagner" and not use a physical attribute or possession or any kind of statement that referred to the past Rick 1.0 achievements. I'm willing to bet that there aren't a lot of people in the world right now that can truly create a paragraph to this question right now. Why? Because they get so wrapped up in what others think of them or who they're trying to impress that they can no longer impress themselves!</div>
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Yes, happy memorial day, My name is Rick 2.0 and even though I'm forgetful with short term memory issues I still have a kind heart and I'm capable of feeling compassion for others including that for myself. My physical condition sucks, my sexual appetite shows up maybe once in a blue moon when all of the medicines allow my pecker to wake up but I still have a beautiful heart filled with life lesson wisdom capable of sharing with anyone who asks. </div>
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I'm sure the Vets are in similar positions with emotion and pain that others around them can't truly comprehend because after eleven years I still become melancholy myself over the loss of Rick 1.0 all those years ago. It's a thing that nobody else can understand no matter how hard you try to describe it, write it, or draw it. It's a pain that will lurk in the darkness forever and no matter how well we fool others to think that we've adapted and adjusted it's almost the equivalent of feeling as if we've been turned into a meaningless zombie that continues to scream to ourselves "don't give up, don't give up.."</div>
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Oh, and let's brainwash ourselves with this "God's Will" crap too... Yeah, Fuck God's Will. If our guardian angels weren't at the goddamn titty bar, none of this would have happened, RIGHT? ... LOL </div>
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Sure, let's pass blame... let's blame the enemy, let's blame the weather, or the time of day, or anything else we think we can conjure up. Do we ever blame ourselves for enlisting in the military knowing the odds? Do we blame ourselves for riding the motorcycle with our sexy leather vest and no helmet? Hmmmmm, yeah right! Forgot about that part huh?? </div>
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Hi, I used to be Rick Wagner 1.0 who was and asshole that thought he could outsmart the universal elements one times too many! Now, I'm Rick Wagner 2.0 who's loaded with faults but is willing to continue moving forward and not continually try to dwell in a past that can never be reached again. </div>
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Yup, for me, Memorial Day sucks and I suspect that it will till the day I die. But, it does so in a way that I can never totally convey to others but know that there are other military veterans who can also relate to this pain and empty feeling of conquest achievement. I will continue to love and respect the 2.0 version as best I can as I try to look forward and follow my new dreams instead of the ones I had eleven years ago. Those I come into contact with I will do my best to try and share this knowledge to cause them to play a personal game of "What If?" with themselves and / or those they love who have or are about to experience similar tram in their own lives. </div>
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Please, don't pray for me or sit there and say Awwwwww... cuz the sympathy doesn't make my blind eye, deaf ear, or lacking sense of taste or smell start working normally. I've done my best to adapt and some think I've done a good job but, still the Rick 1.0 loss remains painful at times in my own mind. I will quietly remind myself that I'm still here for reasons unknown but have faith that these reasons will be revealed at a later time to me and hopefully it will all make perfect sense at that time. Till then, this too shall pass and I'll put the razor blade down and refrain from doing anything stupid. </div>
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To those reading this... thanks... Just plain old thanks for being there even though your invisible and I'll probably never know you.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-17990697434812258152013-03-02T05:35:00.003-08:002013-03-13T12:24:13.528-07:00Fed Up with Google's Nasty TacticsWow, yesterday my Huz, Wynn, became furious with the nasty stuff Google has been doing recording searches and purchases, eliminating Microsoft Exchange ActiveSync (EAS) so you can share your contacts and calendars back and forth with LIVE.com (which I also think is shitty). Google told all employees two years ago that they could no longer connect a windows computer to "their" corporate networks and if they attempted to do so they would be terminated. <br />
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Today if you wanted to have EAS with their shit you have to pay for a business account.. This is really lame and it proves that Google is incapable of "playing nice" with others. <br />
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Because of all this, Microsoft is currently at war with them and is doing a really good job of showing the world how they continue to offer free stuff but don't bomb you with spyware or shitty advertising like MySpace did and FaceBook is doing today. <br />
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Anyhow, he was so furious trying to get his Android to play nice with all of his stuff it finally thew the thing down, went to the T-Mobile store and got and HTC Windows Phone instead saying that even though Apple and Mickeysoft try to interconnect with "all" the services, Google has gone way to far with this "all or nothing" behavior and he said he wanted them gone. He couldn't do an iPhone because they don't run on T-mobile and we both learned that this German company sure does focus on their customers FIRST and foremost! <br />
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I don't think I've seen him this angry in a long time but it tells me that I wasn't the only one who was a little ticked off over this new Google 'bait and switch' crap. <br />
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I worked with Microsoft technology for 10 years when I owned and ran DIVANET Hosting and even though they might do something wonky now and then they never pull this favoritism shit that the college dropouts at Google are doing now. Instead they've worked hard to centralize all of their platforms with a singular user interface, (except for their server stuff which I haven't seen in years but...) This is what Apple tried to do with iOS and OS X but failed miserably. <br />
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HS has truly proven how to take a user interface and present it to machines that do and don't have touch screens and make it behave in synchronicity. FACT with windows 8. Soon Windows Blue will come and it will change and evolve faster than every 5 years and I think this will really take off with consumers also. <br />
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I said this years ago... MS is perfect for 'number crunching' and APL is perfect for 'making pretty' with different media. I have long given up on trying to do some serious office management with Apple. Don't believe me..?? Fine, then tell me why can't find any decent 'Flat File" database programs for OS X but there's about 20 or 30 established in the Windows world and OS X has been going for the past 13 years? Huh?? Point of Sale=Windows, Database=Windows, Accounting=Windows (and don't even think of mentioning the pathetic versions of QuickBooks Mac) Instead, I have several wonks peddling MySQL (yuk) and other overly complicated shit. HELLO !!! I just want to build a quick list of shit in my garage I don't want to launch rockets or rule the world. <br />
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I've learned not to recommend stuff to others because it turns into a useless pissing match.. instead I use what works for me cuz I run my Husband's home business that does a minimum of 27k in sales each year for the past 10 years proving to all the whiny bitches out there that they can be very productive right at home. So tell that cow at Yahoo to go fuck herself for telling her employees that they can no longer Tele-commute anymore. Fuck, I did it for 13 years with my California based company http://www.hydrasystems.com/ very successfully. <br />
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Maybe they should have some college courses on entrepreneurial things instead of kissing corporate ass for a paycheck. I know people who fortify their retirement income selling stupid shit on eBay. If these old farts with Walmart computers can figure this out, how come the fools standing in unemployment lines can't? Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-3933921344775584722013-02-16T05:55:00.000-08:002013-03-13T12:24:01.672-07:00The State of Humanity<h2 style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"><b>The State of Humanity</b></span></h2><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-ncmutWX8UpA/UR-OWapx3iI/AAAAAAAAIAQ/gKNoTMVblAo/s1600/WeThePeople.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="96" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-ncmutWX8UpA/UR-OWapx3iI/AAAAAAAAIAQ/gKNoTMVblAo/s320/WeThePeople.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><span id="internal-source-marker_0.7537578882221999" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">As a society here in 2013, why do we seem to be filled with so much hate towards one another? </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">As we drive down the road and another person cuts in front of us going half the speed limit we shake our fist and scream “get out of the way asshole” instead of making sure that driving instructors for our youth are focused on teaching students to avoid this. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">We find it more important to poke our phones and text our invisible friends without investing more time to engage in things face to face. We judge another person by who they know, what they type, and post on their online social hangout but rarely do we offer them any true comfort. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Have we advanced with technology or has it become a placeholder for true friendship forcing us more into isolation in the world? Hate Hate Hate.... Why? If you don’t measure up then I’m taught to hate you. Why?? </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">And “what’s in it for me...?” seems to be the law of the land these days.. Rarely do you hear “here, let me show you how to do that...” instead it’s replaced with “What are ya, stupid? You never learned how to do that and you’re 30 years old?” Then we accuse others of being full of baggage. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Why do Christians brag about how much they love Jesus and their God but the moment they walk out of the church they find more interest in the shortcomings of others and making themselves look artificially superior even though they know it’s fake. This is a loving person from a so-called ‘loving’ God?? Did I miss something? </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">We plaster our social profiles with sexy photos of ourselves thinking it will lure more people into liking us till they find out how horrible and benign we really are. And then we judge others for their lack of ‘Truth’ never realizing how twisted our own morals are. Wow, we’ve certainly come a long way in the new millennium but my question is when it comes to interacting with others, did we get closer or repel further away from the humans around us. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Why do the rich hate the poor and vice versa? The poor see the rich as scam artists who don’t know what the word “work’ really means... and the rich see the poor as lazy and good for nothing with no interest in growth or learning. Did the rich forget that they were blessed with abundance while their friends were blessed with challenges and poverty? They both went to the same kindergarten so what went wrong? But did outsiders ever put them in a room together to determine which of them grew up with the most wisdom and humanity? Or even hate for that matter?</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Have smartphones become the dumb weapon that shot us in the proverbial foot? Have we turned into the 1970’s movie “Logan’s Run” with our need to dial-an-orgasm but with no true friendships with one another? Some reading this, especially the youth, may think of this conversation as a ‘downer’ but the fact remains that social violence has grown over the past three decades. We even show reality stuff on television to further humiliate and applaud others and we call it “progress”. Why? Are there less sad and lonely people in the world compared to three decades ago? Do we focus more on helping the needy and less fortunate or do we focus on hoarding as much as we can for ourselves?</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Over the years I have been founder of several social groups but it seems that trying to get people with common interests together in the same room more than once is like praying for a miracle. “Did you see the clothes on that bitch, who the fuck does she think she is? I would never invite that thang to my house and mess up my white sofa and carpeting... I don’t care how juicy Miss Lucy thinks she is, that thing better stay the hell away from me..... blah blah blah...” We think talk like this is funny but, is it really? Or, does it hide an invisible insecurity by the person who just said it? Does the reader of this even know what the word “insecurity” means? </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">I can’t help wondering if INSECURITY is the real thing going on here. If others are so worried about fitting have they forgotten who the hell they really are themselves? When someone asks them to say something about themselves, they offer a laundry list of bullshit that the other person wants to hear like a resume but never really connects to it with true emotion.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">I’m learning that there’s a lot of people right here in this busy city who can’t answer this and it seems scary. They can whine about their privacy, or the cost of gas, or the bitch next door but, when it comes to their own identity they are clueless. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">The bible says “The meek shall inherit the earth.” I don’t recall it saying anything about the insecure or the clueless. Even though the one with the most toys wins, what exactly is it that they win? How to be an asshole to others? Is this what get’s you into heaven or moved into the next astral life?</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Why do we murder one another over different beliefs? Is a belief more important than a human life? Are all humans supposed to act the same, dress the same, talk the same and if they’re different they need to be extinguished? Does this behavior also extinguish growth and enlightenment as well? How can you ever learn something new if you killed those who could teach different things to you? </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Sorry, but I like learning. It doesn’t mean I agree with everything I learn but it gives me the chance to envision and adapt to change easier. In 2002 my life completely changed after being hit by a drunk 19 year old on my motorcycle. I went through anger, hate, loss, depression, acceptance, adaptation, love, loneliness, and lots of retrospection. Ya know what? Back then, I was a selfish person filled with judgements, dislikes, and always focused on hoarding as much knowledge as I could collect for myself and assuming the stupidity in others was by their own choice not mine. Boy was I ever wrong. Some of those people were incapable of growth because everyone else always ignored them on their own life quest. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">I had to learn the painful balance of life and learn that there is a very fine line between good and evil. There is no absolute regardless what other religious whack-jobs may say. Trying to live on that fine line is nice but you can’t be in that mode forever because you’ll never grow or be able to adapt to life changes. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">No, I don’t give a crap about power, or wealth, or being supreme cuz if we were all climbing the emotional mountain of life, the dude at the top is the loneliest person around. Nobody else up there on his level. Nobody at all. Think about it! So what is the top dude’s great reward and accomplishment if he’s the only one? It would seem that we teach our kids to “be the best..” at all times without ever seeing the brick walls of their little box at the top. Nobody else measures up so why give a shit about them? So how come they seem happier than I am even though they’re more stupid? Could it be that they have companionship with others and I get to sit here all alone each day, every day? Being the best is good? YEAH RIGHT! BUZZZ, NOT! Being the best is good only if you take the time to share it with others willing to grow too. No, not force it on them, but give them the chance to seek more if they choose. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Chew on this! If life is all about learning, experiencing, and accumulating things and then we finally croak, we already know that none of the wealth or toys can go with us. Suppose that wonderful stuff in our mind can? Now where’s the real power? Now suppose that knowledge is going to be required to live and fulfill requirements in the next life? Freaky huh? What do you suppose will happen to the hateful, selfish minds after they croak?</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-11246443906781653742013-01-12T13:15:00.002-08:002013-03-13T12:23:48.737-07:00Made it through another yearWow, and now it's 2013 and I made it through another year... BFD right? for those of you not in the know, BFD means (Big Fucking Deal)... :-) Anyhow, I think it was a pretty good year compared to all the horror and trama I had to deal with last year... <br />
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Sure the Huz has health issues, and so do I but we manage to adapt to all the changes so I guess that's good. <br />
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Our rental tenant moved out and got his own place... Sadly though his behavior really took a toll on our friendship and it left us more like acquaintances rather than friends. At first I was a mentor but later on I was accused of "picking on him" all the time so maybe it was meant to be. I just didn't want to see the dude suffer some of the same negative things that I did in my past but oh well, now he'll just have to figure it out on his own.<br />
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I also had a snit with a couple House of Light members and it resulted in resigning from the group but later the founder told me that she wouldn't accept it because of all the great stuff I do to help and keep things running. So instead I just blocked the offending individuals from my Facebook postings and reading and as far as I'm concerned they don't exist.<br />
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Ohh yeah, I did that with my Aunt Pam Hydeck too after she coplained about "being forced to read my rhetoric" when I politely asked republic Romney supports to please un-friend me. Ahhh fuck'em! They live in Penn. and never bother behave like a family anyhow so why the fuck should I care. My mom was a bit shocked when I read off Pam's message to me realizing that this bitch has some serious issues. <br />
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I guess maybe one thing I learned throughout 2012 is not to waste my time trying to fix other people's baggage... Instead, just treat it like a broken light switch and shot the friggin thing off and walk away.. No muss, no fuss... just off and gone! Buhhh bye... If I was so fucking important to them then they would have done something to repair things themselves. <br />
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I think the most fun I've had was hanging out with our friend Tom Walker during the holidays and doing absolutely nothing but watching the fireplace, noshing on a light meal and relaxing. No deadlines, no worries, and no disappointments.. Sure would be nice if I could remember to write more stuff on here in the future but as usual, I'm sure I'll have some excuse or another to say why I didn't... Blah Blah Blah... yeah yeah yeah... If any of the readers here really gave a shit they would comment more telling me that my thoughts matter (uhh huh like that's gonna happen anytime soon.) Still it's so cool not having to engage in other people's drama and just fiddlin' with my huz and my goofy cat and dog... Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-49446153528850407192012-09-08T09:11:00.001-07:002012-09-08T09:17:37.458-07:00Technology sure is sweet sometimes!!My iPhone weather report said yesterday was 104F and today was going to be 75F and sure as shit, it was a welcome weather cool down here in Texas. 104F on September 7, 2012? Must have been all that hot air from the Republican National Convention or something. <br />
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Earlier this week, my Huz bought me a new solid state MacBook Pro with the new retina display and I just copied my entire music library form my Lacie 2TB thunderbolt drive over to it in about 2.5 minutes..<br />
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<b>This kinda shit used to take hours not minutes!!</b><br />
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<b>I thought I was going to have to blow most of my day sitting around and wasting time on it.. </b><br />
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My goal is to make a computer that will hold my entire world, be portable, run OS-X and Windows-7, store my photo library of 60,000, my music library of 12,806 (all legally owned) including my 208 videos. Be capable of running for more than a skinkin' 2 hours on a charge and be completely solid state with no moving parts to crap out three years from now. <br />
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The MacBook Pro was ok, but it only had a couple hundred gig and I had to invest in the LaCie external drive to schlep around or leave behind when moving around. Not cool if you're working on a project that needs access to the external stuff. Oh and don't drop or bang it too much cuz you don't wanna wind up with a drive crash.<br />
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Yes, Thunderbolt is truly amazing, awesomely fast and soon it will be on Windows computers too. Yes, the components are a bit pricey but there's a lot of circuit brains in the controllers that are capable of moving the data as fast as an SSD. You really do get what you pay for in this case. If you're a web hosting company that's focused on moving terabytes of data during a backup, then you should seriously consider this tiny and portable solution.<br />
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Two other things that really helped me in the past three days was my account at DropBox.com and also my premium account with EverNote.com systems. Why? Because when I buy software and get those silly email's with the registration codes, I've used Evernote to capture them instead of printing out in a huge paper folder or entering each one into 1Password making it time consuming to say the least. Best of all I can get to the data years later with my phone, my iPad, Macs, Pc's and not skip a beat.<br />
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When I'm working on a project, say something like writing my Biography Book, or even my Pagan Survival Guide I've done for several years.. I don't like having to schlep around a flash drive, or "sneaker net" the changed files among different computers. So, I store it on my DropBox in a folder and can instantly work on them from anywhere so long as I have a network connection. Can you can "Proper Use of the Cloud Services"<br />
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Same things with iTunes MATCH... I can get to my music (no, not movies... just the tunes) from *all* of my puppies that can run iTunes be it my phone, my pad, my PC or my MACs.... Sweet Huh?<br />
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Sometimes when I think how hard I used to work to add a new 1.2 Gigabyte Hard Drive to the DIVANET servers I built and how I had to book off 1/2 a day to do it I'm truly amazed. If I made one more fucking trip to Fry's Electronics for weekend parts to fix something that crapped out, I would scream!! Now, just push a button, pull out the old USB or Thunderbolt cable and plug in a new one.. Geez! No more fucked up mounting brackets, missing screws, twisted ribbon cables and hour long partitioning and formatting.<br />
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And the Breeders create these children who eventually own miniature Mainframes in their bedroom with more power than the computers in the pentagon just to play their skanky games or show off their girlfriend's junk or titties. With Dynamic DNS abilities they can set up this computer to share stuff with people all over the world right from the privacy of their bedroom and mommy and daddy have no idea what they're "really" doing. Ahhh but one thing they never learned along the way is that as much as they think they're anonymous to the world *EVERY* network card has a unique thing called a MAC address.. no two of them are alike. And *EVERY* CPU chip has a unique traceable serial number. Those of us 'geeky wonks' who know this also know about the unseen tools we can use to trace this from point A to point B leaving the little monsters shocked when authorities knock on their door in the middle of the night and drag them off to some kind of detention.<br />
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Those who think they're so Evil and Sly only have to make a few wrong moves and their ass is toast. What? Don't believe me? No Worries! Just remember this the next time you screw with someone's stuff and really piss off the wrong tech savy dude like me. The hard drive I format MAY BE YOUR OWN!! Repeat after me, "Technology is Sweet Sometimes, and V is for Vengeance" ---LOL Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-74750277735602918602012-06-07T08:15:00.000-07:002012-06-07T08:15:00.933-07:00So this is what we call fun...Well, fixed the toilet and now it's even better than ever... Instead of doing a plastic handle I did one with brass so this puppy is going to be around for awhile.. As for the plug/stopper thingy, I got one that doesn't have a stupid chain to keep getting caught trying to close after a flush.. Instead it's got a rubber like ribbon and works every time. Woo Hooo.. Guess it makes sense to use the noggin sometimes when fixing things.<br />
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We traded in the '09 80k Corvette sitting in the garage with a dead battery for two years cuz Wynn couldn't drive it anymore with his neuropathy and also the nissan truck and got a Chevy VOLT and man this puppy is truly a luxury car for people with geek DNA. Wow... turns on a dime, quick acceleration, lots of bluetooth and geeky shit. I just learned that it's a true EV and not a hybrid car.. This means the engine in it only runs to charge back the battery with no acceleration or deceleration. Quiet and not a peep or a rattle and handles all the crappy Dallas pothole streets even better than the damn truck.<br />
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To think all of these other little-dick buttholes who spent so much money on their gas pigs as they cry at the gas pump each week and we don't have to fuck with that anymore. Wow... Sure the car was pricey at 42k but Chevy had to pay us 10k back with the Corvette and Truck trade-in. And the damn thing is paid off in full. Fini... over and out.. <br />
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Wow.. Just plug the fucker in and you're good to go later. For me, it's handling reminds me of a Triumph Spitfire me and my ex. Kenny had years ago. Very very fun to drive and quickly maneuver around the assholes that always seem to cut in front and go slow in front of you while in the fast lane. (still don't know why they do this but...) I can whip around them in seconds with no worries.<br />
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I don't know if I'd use the things for a cross-country trek but for here in this screwed up city of Dallas it sure makes driving a pleasure especially when you need something at the spur of the moment. It might even encourage me and Wynn to go out more and romp around to places like the Dallas Aquarium or more social things.<br />
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Well, no, I wouldn't count on social stuff to much. For years here in the gay dallas community I've been the one to plan and arrange all kinds of social stuff but today, in a group of 40 or more queers, you can't even get 5 of them to show up for a weenie or burger roast in the back yard. Let alone never get invited over to one of the multitude folk who have pools. Guess they have to work too hard all the time just to make the mortgage payments or something. Or they're just not much of a friend to being with in the first place. Ahh well, don't care, no worries... their loss.<br />
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Meanwhile, I got a shitload of stuff done on MysticWays... I even put up some YouTube videos on how use things like Pendulums, Candles, and so on... The Godaddy company deliberately changed the admin password on our account because the credit card we used expired and I didn't update it. Wow, only a week's time and they were sure to cut us off. Funny, I called the support line and asked for information on how to download the 1,700 product images from their system following a compute crash and I was told that there was no way to do it. So let's see, you pay them $80 bucks a month for a shopping card system that you spend years uploading, tweaking and refining product images and then learn that if you ever have a crash, there's no way you can download all your stuff??? WTF?? What college kid came up with this method? So I politely told the support dude to kiss my ass and then hung up after informing him that I have no intention of renewing my payment method.<br />
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<b>Nope, I love BigCommerce.com and these guys truly rock.</b> Yes there is somewhat of a learning curve, but their help system will walk you though most things item by item unless the piece of shit Godaddy system which is nothing but pretty fluff and (nope, can't do that from here) remarks.<br />
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I think the really cool thing about the new store is that I can arrange things the way I want and not have to kiss ass or fuck with hidden HTML code to make it happen. Hell, I've stopped using the stupid QuickBooks merchant account to process credit cards and go full throttle with PayPal instead. This holds the sale money for ransom for a month to protect against charge-offs etc. But heaven help the scam artist that tries to do that on one of our sales. I've got the FedEx shipping log to prove delivery of everything we send out and if they lie saying they never got it, I have proof they did and in return PayPal is going to reverse the charge-off fee back to them instead. How's that for a nice "Fuck You Very Much" end to their scam? And bitch all you want... you want that $1.98 product? Maybe you should buy a few of them if you're gonna pay the base rate of $7.00 for shipping. Don't ya think? None the less, I know you got it and there's no way you're gonna screw me out of it.<br />
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This is why expensive essential oils and fragrances over an ounce are shrink wrapped so they can't replace the bottles with water and mail them back.. (yup, they did the in the past too!) No shrink wrap, no refund... Would you ilke me to re-sell an oil you're going to use in food that your aunt Martha returned after opening the bottle with her germy fingers she just cleaned the cat littler box with? Didn't think so.<br />
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My next hobby project is my dinky little microwave glass fusing kiln that I bought a year ago on sale and still haven't had enough free time to play with. Been doing lots of research on youtube and around on the net and learned that I can fuse a piece of jewelry in about 3 minutes instead of 25-30 using my paragon quick fire and I'm looking forward to fusing some of my witchcraft pagan decals to them for unique one of a kind pendants.<br />
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Right now I have a table full of Sculpy/Fimo/Primo pendants I'm finishing in the kitchen (which looks like a bad nightmare at the moment) to get online of reasonable prices. The Key to MysticWays stuff is to be UNIQUE or LIMITED or RARE. The kind of shit you don't just walk into a store and buy off a shelf from a multitude of competitors. I also learned about www.Etsy.com and have made friends with several of the artisans there too doing the same. Who knows, I might even put a few things up there myself in the future.<br />
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In a heated discussion with Bob, ( Robert Evans ) who called my stuff kitchy, it really hit me hard but I politely remind him that I've sold tons of my stuff over the past 10 years to very appreciative buyers vs. the small handful of his so-called art. That seems to be more of a message in itself no?<br />
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In the past, I always had dreams about meeting other crafty people and having glaze painting parties, or polymer clay fiddling events, or even some of the other cool things I've done but not have to be the "only one, or the head daddy, or lead artist" that everyone followed and relied on. You mean I'm the only person in Dallas who has a fucking serger or sewing machine? The only one who has a microwave and a $100 fusing kiln? or a 5 gallon bucket of busted stained glass in his shed? Puhlease<br />
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Gosh, back in the day, I used to love being around mentors like myself trying to learn as much as I could about the hobbies I did. It seems like that kind of mindset has pretty much vanished. Even the music industry is a pile of high school graduates screaming "Uhh Huh..Yo Yo Yo, That's right" instead of telling a true emotional message. (Is this what my grandfather experienced before he died? Don't know...) today you hear a song that's nothing more than a copy of one made 25 years ago or a pile of gibberish about someones junk, in a trunk, and how juicy is that coochie. Most can't play a real instrument but they know how to use Garage Band on their Apple and program electronic looping riffs. (Yawn... boring.. it's been done.. move on.) Even Boy George couldn't play an instrument but at least the dude hooked up with a bunch of people who could but maybe that's a thing of the past. Even Rock music is so full of negative depression (you did me wrong, you're such a bitch, I hate your guts, can't get outta this.. blah blah blah..) Does anyone write songs about impossible love, or being thankful etc? No, I'm not talking about bible thumping shit either.<br />
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Well, I'm done jabbering here... nobody reads or comments on this shit anyhow but it makes me feel good to vent to myself. I'm truly one of a kind and I like that. I don't have to impress others or kiss someone's ass for a job. I'm good at what I do and I've earned everything I have from hard work and focus. I always dreamed of connecting with others seeking similar things but I guess that was just a fantasy. I've got a wealth of wisdom to share with those who seek but when they're too chicken to ask honestly, then they just don't deserve to learn from me. Guess 'silence is golden' after all.<br />
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My Life Lessons have made me who I am today and I'm thankful for them. As horrible as some may have been they taught me to understand others and prepare for the unknown without negative feelings or judgement. All the twisted brain screw-ups, all the wonderful things I got to finish always bitching about never having enough time in the day and all the people I came in contact with throughout my life. Nope, I don't want to reverse or change them. I don't have a problem saying I'm sorry for something I did a decade ago unlike so many other people. I don't want to be the best, I don't want to be the king or the focal point in other people's conversations. Here today gone tomorrow.. no thanks.. I just want to be loved, I want to love back in return and have a way to experience new things all the time offering to share it back in return. <br />
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Wise men don't seek students... the students seek the wise men. Wise men aren't better than you, they just have more hands on experience in what you seek. <b>Sharing = Growth for us all. </b>You don't get a medal or door prize for being the best when you die. Instead, you're judged by how much you shared with the human race along the way. Yup, I'm good... That's me.. all the assholes in the world can't steal what's in my head no matter how hard they try and they'll never possess it if they don't bother to ask either cuz I have no intention of forcing it on them either. Funny how these were the kind of Mentors I always respected throughout my life and I've become one myself. Buhhh Bye...Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-61629226301840076482012-06-07T06:27:00.002-07:002012-06-07T06:27:55.887-07:00<br />
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Well, after all this time I finally got my Dragon NaturallySpeaking to work on my MacBook air.</div>
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I have all the stuff sitting around in a pile and just never put aside enough time to hook up the headphone and do all the voice training.</div>
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Now, as you're reading this, I'm typing this message with my voice not with my keyboard. Originally, I was planning on doing some story writing the things become so busy around here that the free time seemed to be nonexistent.</div>
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Today, the flushing thing for the toilet in my bathroom broke. So now I have to make a trip to Home Depot to buy parts. So off I go.</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-1350566455020687682012-05-20T11:09:00.000-07:002012-05-20T11:11:04.347-07:00New Day and My New Home PageI found this awesome upgrade to a web designer I used to like using when I had my old PowerPC mac. The problem was when I upgraded to the Intel based ones these guys were slow to adapt and I was kinda forced to use something else. Well, I took a chance and I was totally blown away at all the hard work they did. The program is called SandVox and it's very similar to the iWeb program that Apple made and later discontinued. So I spend the work porting all my junk over and so far I'm really impressed at how well it came out...<br />
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I was clever enough to build a test area to make sure I was good with it and just did the final publish to my active site...<br />
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<a href="http://www.OaklawnRick.com/">http://www.OaklawnRick.com</a>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-69738731571727913692012-04-28T09:13:00.000-07:002012-05-20T10:59:06.707-07:00Why is fitting in so important?<br />
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Why are people always so worried about "fitting in" with others? Doesn't it make more sense to embrace the things that make us unique and share those abilities with others willing to learn more about them?<br />
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Imagine for a second if we all looked the same, we all dressed the same, we all had the same profession, we all ate the same food and spoke the same language with the same customs. What would this do to the concept of Art? How could we strive to be 'better' or 'superior' if we were all the same like a bunch of carbon copied robots?<br />
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Instead, society teaches us to hate that which we don't understand or that which is different. Why? Doesn't it make more sense to embrace those differences in the 'other' and try to enlighten ourselves more learning and respecting this unique being? Is it better to vanquish them instead as not to corrupt or cloud the robotic gene pool?<br />
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And what about the one who's 'too fabulous' to fit in? They're left to face a world of lonliness, hatred, scorn, and ridicule just because they don't meet the status quo? If the Christian God created us all in his own image then which of the two beings is or is not the element to build friendship with and why? Technically they're all god's creatures right? Don't they have a right to be happy too so long as they're not harming others?<br />
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So what is the harm of two male doves falling in love and spending the rest of their lives together? You know this happens in real life right now as we speak right? Should we shoot and kill them because they don't fit the norm? Are they harming the other doves? Last I checked they were supposed to be the symbol of peace so why should we care about their gender? Do they molest other baby doves and can't be trusted at a baby sitter? If a neighbor parent dies, would the other doves prevent those males from nurturing and raising the dead parent's children regardless of who they choose to love?<br />
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How many of you reading this know the true difference between SEX and LOVE? SEX is something you do with the shit between your legs. LOVE is something you do with your mind and your heart!<br />
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So what's the difference between the words "PLAY" and "INTIMACY" when it comes to the Gay Bear community? Which of them is more likely to lead to a future spending the rest of their lives with one another? Do you play or do you get intimate?<br />
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Next, if you were going to have a picnic would you only invite your Gay friends? Your Str8 friends? or Both? And WHY?<br />
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Yes, these are truly things that make ya go hummmm with wonderment huh?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-69305728990931223522012-04-28T08:27:00.001-07:002012-04-28T08:27:24.276-07:00Hate group leader vs. Log Cabin Republican about Romney<a href="http://gaycast.net/video/Hate-group-leader-faces-off-wit#.T5wMSFy63-M.blogger">Hate group leader vs. Log Cabin Republican about Romney</a>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-74072994707725360742012-04-23T12:09:00.001-07:002012-04-23T12:09:03.614-07:00Yardwork is such funSpring is here and it's time to take down all the overgrown hedges so the people can walk along the sidewalk oh joy better do it before we get a citation for having it blocked.<div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-joh28V90r6c/T5Wozu9gxDI/AAAAAAAADVA/fjKmSfNQtUo/s640/blogger-image-1157405689.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-joh28V90r6c/T5Wozu9gxDI/AAAAAAAADVA/fjKmSfNQtUo/s640/blogger-image-1157405689.jpg" /></a></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-69020053724663012112012-04-20T11:46:00.000-07:002012-04-20T11:46:05.251-07:00Facebook fails, but blogger works?? Go figure!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-42310098638746823352012-04-05T09:09:00.002-07:002012-04-23T07:23:01.772-07:00Welcome to the Dallas-Gayborhood<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-ZVXBcoxwEbE/T33DgaOX-1I/AAAAAAAAC3M/2neiwZkcy2s/s1600/Banana-Cock-2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-ZVXBcoxwEbE/T33DgaOX-1I/AAAAAAAAC3M/2neiwZkcy2s/s1600/Banana-Cock-2.jpg" /></a></div><div style="color: #252525; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: 9.9px; line-height: 15.3px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20.7px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 13.5px;">Welcome to a new place on the internet for people who live or visit the Cedar Springs part of Dallas, TX often!</span><span style="font-size: 12.6px; line-height: 13.5px;"><br />
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Some of us are young, some are older than shit, and some are just hiding the fact that they age at all. Yeah you go girrrlll.<br />
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If you're looking for a chance to connect to others right here in the city, then freely enter our Dallas-Gayborhood online forum. No worries and no labels here. Don't care what you classify your sexual identity as. Just interested in meeting and greeting new faces and meeting face to face.<br />
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Do take the time to say "Hello World" and introduce yourself instead of sitting there on your fat ass too chicken to be social.<br />
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No, we don't want your money, we don't want your transportation and we have no interest in sucking up for a new place to live. </span><span style="font-size: 14px;"><br />
</span><span style="font-size: 14px;">We're established and responsible hard working people and have no interest in kissing your ass to earn your friendship. We have no interest in exposing your private life to your boss or whomever you might be hiding it from at the moment.<br />
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Then again, if you're too rude or too fucking stupid to be polite to others then you can be sure we'll set your sorry-ass straight in no time. So act your age and not your shoe size. </span><span style="font-size: 14px;"><br />
</span><span style="font-size: 14px;">And one more thing before you go,,, BLESS YOUR HEART !!!!</span><span style="font: normal normal normal 13px/normal Arial, Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br />
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Wouldn't ya just know it! Just when you thought you've saw seen it all you run into this! Now all I need to know is if I can get them on Amazon and start sending them out as gifts to some people who may desperately need them.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-29017729448183571512012-04-03T09:04:00.001-07:002012-04-23T07:26:36.117-07:00Formed a TBI Brain Injury Group on MEETUP<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-GrTEJkYr_gk/T3sfXPM7WZI/AAAAAAAAC0U/zxVDzYuIGqw/s1600/traumatic_brain_injury_head_injury-thumb-250x200.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-GrTEJkYr_gk/T3sfXPM7WZI/AAAAAAAAC0U/zxVDzYuIGqw/s1600/traumatic_brain_injury_head_injury-thumb-250x200.jpg" /></a></div>Well today, I decided to form a TBI Brain Injury Support Group using the Meetup system. Why? Well, it forces members to reply to event notifications and I can include the monthly meetings that they have at Baylor (BIR) to keep people involved etc. <br />
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In addition, I will also consider doing a monthly meet and greet meeting at Buzz Brews where members can show up for coffee and share ideas and stuff with one another.<br />
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The reason for all of this is because the federal gov. HIPPA law prevents care giving groups to remain in contact of their old patients once they have been released. In some ways to the TBI patient this can seem like punishment not having others to stay connected to that can relate to things. So, hopefully this may help take the edge off the loneliness factor allowing the elders and the newbies to share things.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0Cedar Springs @ Crestview - N - NS United States32.82121 -96.825802tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1717285934896265947.post-82909042853547191222012-03-30T06:42:00.000-07:002012-03-30T06:58:12.854-07:00The right work center is so important.<b>Ya know.. many years back I had a Steelcase desk that included what was called a "typing return" on it's side.. The desk height was 30" from the floor and the return was 26" from the floor and was the perfect height for long hours of keyboard work.. I even brought it to TX with me when I moved here but my Huz got me a new and improved one made of particle board by Sauder which later met it's demise. (Typical of today's put-together crap...) </b><br />
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Todays desks have those shiftily little pull out thingy's but they always jiggle, wiggle, and slide out of place so I thought I would look to see if I could find a suitable desk accessory to a return for my desk. Yeah right.. fat fucking chance... no way.. I did find this little printer table from Satco on Amazon but when it arrived I realized that it was going to be more like typing on a TV tray table on wheels. <br />
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Strangely enough, a couple years ago Wynn bought this thingy called a "grooming table" when we got Keiser our doberman pup so we could easily file his nails, manage his coat etc. not realizing how obedient he was going to turn out not needing it. So it got folded up and set aside. <br />
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Well low and behold, I was doing some work with some fabric out in the back yard and needed a quick table to work on so I pulled it out and I was shocked to see with the legs compressed the table was much lower than the usual fold up tables you see around town in the office community. I got out my tape measure and sure enough it was perfect twenty six inches from the floor.<br />
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Now all this might seem odd but trust me.. if you do lots of typing on a 29-30" desk all day you'll soon have painful wrists and the beginnings of carpel tunnel in no time. Having the right ergonomic typing height is key to working efficient and since I used to type 142wpm (about as fast as most people speak) before my motorcycle accident I was accustomed to working with correct typing posture cuz typing was mandatory for my job when recording what a support client is saying over the phone. </div>
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Anyhow, I digress... So a couple years ago I bought this black glass piece of shit to use as a desk return with a stupid pull out keyboard tray and the damn thing always looked filthy. (don't ever get gloss black, trust me) No matter how much I de-cluttered and wiped the place always looked dank. </div>
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So today I got a wild hair a crossed my ass when my new printer thingy came only to find out it was too dinky. I tore apart the glass piece of shit and replace it with the dog's grooming table and wow.. I have more floor space, I have the proper typing height for long hours of work. I have a sweet doberman snuggled up at my feet and everything is just an arm's reach away.. <br />
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Now when you consider that most of the put-together office furniture is made in china these days, you'd think that someone out there would be sick and tired of not having a desk capable of sitting at the correct typing height all on it's own right? Duhhh... doesn't take a rocket scientist. And ya know what, I'll bet that today's American college graduates sat at a desk in school that was lower than 30" themselves but became to fucking stupid to care. It's easier to go to a doctor and whine or take a pill for that sore wrist instead right? </div>
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<b>Oh well, I'm good. In addition to that, I have three 13" x 14" mouse pads across the work area and I don't need to fuck with using a stupid 6x9 Office Depot mouse pad cuz the whole damn work area is a friggin' mouse pad.. Cool huh? My grandpa taught me years ago to "work with your head not with your back" and to always think things through knowing that function is far more important than fashion.</b></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0